Time

I feel like time is constantly slipping away from me. There is this looming guilt that hangs over me that I'm not doing enough with the time I've been given. After all the boys are only this size for a brief moment and then time has passed and my opportunity to impart all that I want to is gone. I'm lucky that I get to be a mommy but am I wasting this time I have with them? How can you truly live every day completely in the moment and savor every second of life without getting caught up in the past or the future? I wish I knew that secret. For now it is my ever pressing goal to consciously take the time every day to be thankful to enjoy them and to store up those ever fleeting memories.

This mommy's ode to naps!

It is my firm belief that naps are the oasis for the mom's soul. That delicious 1-3 hours (on a good day) when both of my babies are in an alternate state of consciousness and the house is quiet (sigh). The weight of responsibility is lifted and everything within me just loosens and relaxes. It is wonderful.

It is in those moments I am able to mend the scattered pieces of my focus and sanity that have been scattered during the previous hours of mommy-hood and I gain new courage for the craziness ahead. Somehow the fact that the plunger is my toddler's new favorite toy and so he feels the need to place it in my son's crib while I'm running across the room yelling "Stop, stop!" in vain, seems, not so bad.

During naps I have moments of great ambition when I believe that I will finish that day's to-do list. Somehow, by the end of nap time I actually miss my babies and the fact that naps transform cranky toddlers back into angels is just an added bonus.

Naps are such beautiful things! So here is my wish sent to all the mommies in cyber land and beyond that today is a good nap day and that you find renewed energy and perspective during today's nap time!! And give your babies a hug and an extra kiss when they come out of dream land!

Twas the Night Before Discharge

Here I sit knowing that tomorrow my life is going to change forever. Oh my goodness it is my job to form and shape another life. I think almost all moms have this feeling right before their child arrives. The difference for me is that he has been here for a month and a half and I feel like a barely know him. It is a crazy feeling.

My early baby's NICU journey will be over tomorrow and he will start a new journey here at home. I am so excited to have him meet his big brother and for us to come together as a family all together in one place.

I am thankful that I serve a God who is concerned with every detail of my life. I'm thankful that he has cared for my little boy since his conception and through every day in the NICU. I am most thankful that he will care for him every day of his life until we see him face to face. May he know the love of our savior and have a personal relationship with him that will carry him through all the days of his life.